The Lost Dream of Being an Astronaut

by Thomas J

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Follow up to 2010's "Hang In There, Baby". Download includes 685x685 JPGs of front and back cover.

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released April 30, 2011

Thomas J Marchant

The cover art is made using images that, as I understand it, are public domain. If you own either of them, let me know.

Also, I didn't write Jack o' Diamonds, it's a cover of a traditional song, made famous (for me at least) by Lonnie Donegan.

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Track Name: I Sold My Heart (To Goldman Sachs)
I sold my heart
to Goldman Sachs
It'll cost me twice as much
to ever get it back
A dime for a dozen
my brain cooks in the oven
My hands fall to the floor
and all I want is more
I want
just a little more
and yeah I want
just a little more

Things used to cost a penny
as good as almost any
Back in my day
it was all work and no play
So I sold my heart
it never did me good
I sold my heart
to Goldman Sachs

A little more
all I want
is a little more

I sold my heart
to Goldman Sachs

I sold my heart
I sold my heart
Track Name: Everyone That's Someone
Everybody tell me
what am I gonna do?
I try my very best
to understand you
I try to swallow words
that are leaving my mouth
But I start to choke
and then I spit them back out
I don't wanna be a
soldier no more
but this fuckin' desert
doesn't seem to have a door
I wish that I was
a thousand miles tall
So the world knows what it feels like
to be really small

I don't wanna be just another
big no-one
But everyone that's someone seems to be
a real cunt

Everybody tell me
keep doing what you do
But to do what I do is
to wonder what to do
I wish I could remember
livin' in the womb
I won't get that feeling back
until I'm in a tomb
I'm always so angry
When I get out of my bed
'Cause the world that surrounds me
ain't the world that's in my head
I don't wanna be
a whore no more
but the law is such a bore
like that film by Mr. Gore

I don't wanna be just another
big no-one
But everyone that's someone seems to be
a real cunt

Everybody tell me
what am I gonna do?
I try my very best
to understand you
I try to swallow words
that are leaving my mouth
But I start to choke
and then I spit them back out
I don't wanna be a
soldier no more
but this fuckin' desert
doesn't seem to have a door
I wish that I was
a thousand miles tall
So the world knows what it feels like
to be really small
Track Name: It's East To Get Confused
I've got these words in me
too big to fit my mouth
In my dreams
it's easy to get them out

I know I want you
but I don't know if I need you
It's easy to get confused

well I just wanna know how you are doing
but it's so easy to get lost when you're pursuing
and I just want you to know that I will still be your friend
I guess I'll still need you in the end

The dust is all up my side
No point in tryin'a hide
I'm not in a coma
my body is still alive

I know I want you
but I don't know if I need you
It's easy to get confused
Track Name: Honestly This Is Honesty
The human race came from
between your thighs
but if you ask me what my favourite part of you is
I will say your eyes

I'll lie
to get by

Some people are trouble
more than they're worth
It's a good thing that you're priceless
'cause you are so much worse

I kid
I'm just kidding, believe me

I know that some day
you will be gone
I haven't quite worked out
how I'll carry on

I'll just die
or at least I will cry

And I guess it's all the same
And I guess we're both the same
And I guess we're only sane
And I guess we're all we're all
We're all to blame

Maybe you'll stay here
and we will grow old
I worry that my character
will start to unfold

I'll lie
To get by
Track Name: Jack o' Diamonds
Jack o' diamonds
Jack o' diamonds
Diamonds is a hard card to find

When you play the game of life
You've got trouble, you've got strife
Jack of diamonds is a hard card to find
Life is like a game of cards
Buts it's very, very hard
Jack of diamonds is a hard card to find

Jack o' diamonds
Jack o' diamonds
Diamonds is a hard card to find
Jack o' diamonds
Jack o' diamonds
Diamonds is a hard card to find

Met a girl and lost my heart
Lack of money made us part
Jack o' diamonds is a hard card to find
She said life is just a bet
But I've never won it yet
Jack o' diamonds is a hard card to find

Jack o' diamonds
Jack o' diamonds
Diamonds is a hard card to find
Jack o' diamonds
Jack o' diamonds
Diamonds is a hard card to find

If you throw a diamond jack
You will never once look back
Jack o' diamonds is a hard card to find
You'll have luck and you'll have wealth
But you may never have your health
Jack o' diamonds is a hard card to find

Jack o' diamonds
Jack o' diamonds
Diamonds is a hard card to find
Jack o' diamonds
Jack o' diamonds
Diamonds is a hard card to find

People say that ace is high
But I know that it's a lie
Jack o' diamonds is a hard card to find
Queen of hearts is way above
'Cause the heart is singing love
Jack o' diamonds is a hard card to find

Jack o' diamonds
Jack o' diamonds
Diamonds is a hard card to find
Jack o' diamonds
Jack o' diamonds
Diamonds is a hard card to find
Diamonds is a hard card to find
Diamonds is a hard card to find
Track Name: Clusterfuck
When I was in another world
I caught my finger between my hand and a wall
And so began the story of
my greatest ever fall
It felt like it was an act of passion
more than just drunken aggression
I felt like I was in control
I felt like I was in control
but now I'm older
and now I'm wiser
and I see the world
through a rosey visor
The battle scars
that are on my hand
remind me just how far
away I did land
I'm not sure I'd call this my time
2002 was probably my prime
but other than that I'm doing fine
with very few social crimes
I feel like I am in control
I feel like I am in control
Like butter I am on a roll
even though I'm on the fucking dole
So now's the time to celebrate
and let good feelings resonate
I've got no energy left to debate
politics and the welfare state
I was never taught to be afraid
I was never taught to be afraid
I was always taught to be afraid
and goddamn it, am I afraid?
I don't know when I'll next get paid
I don't know when I'll next get laid
I don't know when I'll get made
into something you that can trade
I got butterflies coming from my pocket
My arms fell out of their sockets
My nose is constantly blocking
I've overdosed on lemon Lockets
The brown is forming around my tooth
I'm losing touch with the youth
I can't tell the difference between lies and truth
All I ever see is brutes
I feel like I am in control
I feel like I am getting old
I feel like I am going bald
I feel the sting of the holy God
I try to love my fellow man
but they always fuck up my plans
I get angered by Comic Sans
I’m disgusted by fake tans
The whole world seems to just hate nature
It messes up the entire structure
We’re disgusted by a simple fart
For some reason we take it to heart
When I was at a party drunk
I fell through chairs with a hefty thunk
I felt the stares and my heart just sunk
‘cause l was just the party drunk
I guess this is all about learning
and no matter what we do the world keeps turning
Poor countries will keep on burning
Businessmen will keep on earning
To live life without consequence
plays hard on your conscience
Sometimes I think I’m talking nonsense
Sometimes it comes down to common sense
I feel like I am in control
I feel like I am in control
I feel like I have cleansed my soul
I feel like I am out of the hole
I feel like I am in control
I feel like I am in control
I feel like I am in control
I feel like I am in control
Track Name: The Lost Dream of Being an Astronaut
I know it's easy
to please me
just leave me
We're in the good times
I'm feeling fine
'cause I've got life

but If you wanna talk
please pass me by
I just wanna rock and
get real high

The night is not scary
it's eerie
and freezing
The day is the real beast
'cause thousands of people are
at the feast

If you wanna talk
please pass me by
I just wanna rock and
get real high

If you really want to
see me die
Work me to the bone
for the rest of my life
Track Name: Okay to Foul
I
am still alive
But the knife is
sitting in my side
and I'm
running out of time
My blood is pouring
but I'm still warring

and I'm
I'm not gonna fold
'cause sir, I'm not old
Enough to throw in the towel
and I've
I've gotta be bold
not do what I'm told
'cause I am okay to foul

I
am on your side
For as long as
it takes us
then I
will say goodbye
Time'll change us
disgrace us

and I'm
I'm not gonna fold
'cause sir, I'm not old
Enough to throw in the towel
and I've
I've gotta be bold
not do what I'm told
'cause I am okay to foul

and I'm
I'm not gonna fold
'cause sir, I'm not old
Enough to throw in the towel
and I've
I've gotta be bold
not do what I'm told
'cause I am okay to foul
Track Name: Awkawkawkward
I know it seems like I
never care
Darling, I just can't think of
what it is I'd like to say

All of these thoughts come rushing
through my head
but they always just get
lost along the way

We do the best talking
over a drink
It gets the tongue moving
but it makes it so hard to think

Verbal diahrrea she
always takes me hold
This social lubricant is
not as great as I was told
Track Name: Ego
I've got to
get out of this town
The people and buildings
are pushing me down

You said I don't need
to move to the city
In order to find
somebody pretty like
you

Yeah, it's good advice
but if I'm not mistaken
Everyone interesting
seems to be taken like
you

I guess I should make
some sort of pact
With the devil to teach me
how I should act

You said I think way too much
and I'm actually quite normal
It's all in my head I
refuse to see your point of
view

Well it's hard to ever
turn off your brain
But it's nice to know
that we're all the same as
you